Everything has to come to an end. I've given up hope. I don't see u, i don't hear from you. To complete the final yr of 2005 n bring an end to this tormenting time for me.
Yr 2005, sec 4c. Ard Jan, the class has begun to spread " rumours " of me liking you, namely Nai Yu, Kevin and some other " characters ". That escalated to the whole class knowing the situation and it's spreading like wild fire. U were sitting in the front row and i was at the back row, n it so happens that whenever i look at the teacher, i would catch sight of you and that really left a deep impression in me. So from that time onwards, we msged each other agn corz i knew the rumour has got to u.
In sch, i will get nervous n scared that u will ignore me n avoid me whenever the guys raise that rumour agn. The girls said that u liked me too, then you were shy too. Same here.
There's once u asked me to go tampines poly with you, i kinda detested that thought at first, but if there's a moment to see you, i will take that up anytime. But even when i was there, we didn't talk newai. U walked in front n me at de back. But at 1pm, i was like dam sick of it.. then i went to meet with JH.. I left with Wei Jin who was not very enthusiatic bout poly too. I didn't stay for movie though i wanted to watch one with you. When i was reaching home, i got that sms from you saying that u hugged KY during the movie, thx a lot la! Then asked me not to be jealous.. nice one agn...
Another day, u asked me whether i liked pat n my ans was a little, ya.. You said that you were only testing me and prying information from me.
Then at night, u asked whether i liked you, my reply was yes, kinda. So it all began, u knew of my feelings for you and when i asked of ur feelings for me, u replied on sms stating that it's on your nick. i can still vaguely remember ur nick was " ^_^ i like you too " n that was on ur nick when you asked me bout pat.
JJ asked me to initiate steading with you since we both know that we were fond of each other. Then u rejected me, citing the " O " lvls as an excuse. When JJ knew of it, he scolded you for rejecting me. Even then, the smses continue and on the night of 24.03.05, after a whole string of smses, u asked me whether we were together. I pondered over a long period of time wondering what answer to give you to not make us both in an embarrassing situation. But i replied yes all the same, n that was on that night that we stead. The nxt day was Good Friday, when i spent my time at home while u were out playing pool with Adeline and a group of male counterparts. Adeline called me during noon to call me to join u and i could hear u saying no, so.. i have no reply.. though at the end, u wanted me to join but it's too late and i couldn't understand ur statement that you weren't really talking to the boys ( maybe that's just you in the beginning phase ).
So the nxt day, on a Sat when i went back to Tk for D&T, JJ n the rest now know that we are steads now. That's gd news isn't it? But even then, we never go out, we never talk face to face...


+ to be continued + U just msged me on msn... breaking my chain of thoughts... Mixed feelings